Here's a line I know you'll eat up.
"It's not brave if you're not scared." From the movie Bounce.
~Magick~
Melissa
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Sprinkles of Delight
Just a lil something from my journal:
The outside looks different to me today. It is the look of potential...of change...of an altering state. The flock of grackles is back. They covered everything in their blackness. When they flew as one entity it was a black blanket, a blanket of blackness. I was captured by their united'ness, their together'ness. Watching them doesn't reveal who takes flight first - they all seem to move at once without provocation, together in the same direction...then they all together change direction. I wished I was as connected to others. Then I saw the lone groundhog scurrying through the landscape...hiding here, waiting there, being sure all is safe and well before moving again. My heart was delighted by the sight of this simple brown creature. She says, "Spring is HERE, even if we can't see much proof of its arrival." Groundhog disappeared into the woods...alone...going about her busy'ness. My attention returned to the gaggle of grackles. In their midst, a single hawk flew from one tree to another...alone...going about her busy'ness. I long to be as content, as secure in my solitude. And for a while, I am. For now, this is enough.
Sprinkle sized yummy'ness matters.
~Magick~
Melissa
The outside looks different to me today. It is the look of potential...of change...of an altering state. The flock of grackles is back. They covered everything in their blackness. When they flew as one entity it was a black blanket, a blanket of blackness. I was captured by their united'ness, their together'ness. Watching them doesn't reveal who takes flight first - they all seem to move at once without provocation, together in the same direction...then they all together change direction. I wished I was as connected to others. Then I saw the lone groundhog scurrying through the landscape...hiding here, waiting there, being sure all is safe and well before moving again. My heart was delighted by the sight of this simple brown creature. She says, "Spring is HERE, even if we can't see much proof of its arrival." Groundhog disappeared into the woods...alone...going about her busy'ness. My attention returned to the gaggle of grackles. In their midst, a single hawk flew from one tree to another...alone...going about her busy'ness. I long to be as content, as secure in my solitude. And for a while, I am. For now, this is enough.
Sprinkle sized yummy'ness matters.
~Magick~
Melissa
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Snow snow and more snow
This has been THE snowiest winter I've ever seen! Lately it's every few days. As soon as it melts (which isn't soon at all) it snows again. The kid is worried about her summer vacation being used up as they've already lost their spring break.
There is a comfort to this chilly blanket though.
I'm feeling better. Not 100%, but at least I feel like I can move. Have you ever felt like you just couldn't move? Like whatever energy you did have you had to spend on making sure you kept breathing?
I've spent the last two days cleaning....kinda early spring clean out. Organizing this cabinet and that one too. Making an attempt to get the house back into some kind of order after the Squirmy Wormy Hurricane.
That's about it.
I haven't made any art....just don't feel like it. The thing that is most annoying about this entire ordeal is that there isn't any 'real' reason for it - sure there are 'things' that I'd like to have in my life, but they aren't here (period)....so why not just enjoy what is here? I know all the counter arguments about choosing to be happy, arting anyway even if it's bad, counting blessings, just being with the feeling. They just don't work sometimes (and maybe they aren't meant to work every time????). I'd like to say "I know it all" and I think to a certain degree, I do. It's the putting it into practice I have problems with sometimes. It's the drive to get up. Ah, that bubble appears to have popped, so I won't focus any energy on trying to figure it out or conjuring it up again. I'm just glad to see it gone "And don't come back for 5 to 7 days!" (just a lil "My Girl" quote)..........actually lets make that 5 to 7 months!
Maybe my energy level was just really low and I needed to recharge. Maybe I read too much into it. That sounds like something I would do.
Thank you for your wonderful thoughts and words. I deeply appreciate YOU ALL!
~Magickal'ness~
Melissa
There is a comfort to this chilly blanket though.
I'm feeling better. Not 100%, but at least I feel like I can move. Have you ever felt like you just couldn't move? Like whatever energy you did have you had to spend on making sure you kept breathing?
I've spent the last two days cleaning....kinda early spring clean out. Organizing this cabinet and that one too. Making an attempt to get the house back into some kind of order after the Squirmy Wormy Hurricane.
That's about it.
I haven't made any art....just don't feel like it. The thing that is most annoying about this entire ordeal is that there isn't any 'real' reason for it - sure there are 'things' that I'd like to have in my life, but they aren't here (period)....so why not just enjoy what is here? I know all the counter arguments about choosing to be happy, arting anyway even if it's bad, counting blessings, just being with the feeling. They just don't work sometimes (and maybe they aren't meant to work every time????). I'd like to say "I know it all" and I think to a certain degree, I do. It's the putting it into practice I have problems with sometimes. It's the drive to get up. Ah, that bubble appears to have popped, so I won't focus any energy on trying to figure it out or conjuring it up again. I'm just glad to see it gone "And don't come back for 5 to 7 days!" (just a lil "My Girl" quote)..........actually lets make that 5 to 7 months!
Maybe my energy level was just really low and I needed to recharge. Maybe I read too much into it. That sounds like something I would do.
Thank you for your wonderful thoughts and words. I deeply appreciate YOU ALL!
~Magickal'ness~
Melissa
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Blah blah blah
I've been caught up in a big case of the BLAH's! Ugh. I hate it....feeling like this. But that's the way it goes. On a journey, the mountain tops only last so long before you find yourself in a valley of thorny bushes. I feel like I'm finally making my way out though. So, back up the mountain I go!
How I can feel this way with so much Life and cute'ness around me I have no idea. I guess sometimes the inside just doesn't match the outside.
Pop-Tart has started suckling on his brother Twix (and anyone else he finds asleep). Cute lil Twix puts up with it and ends up with a slobbery belly (bottom left corner).
The following pictures represent what the kittens and I have been up to. Zzzzzzzzz.........
Here's Poppy sleeping on his sister Cleo's head.
Twix napping
Pirate napping
Twix yaaaaaaawnin'
Twix and Pirate napping together
Pirate and Cleo napping
Magick napping
~Have a nap-tastic day~
Melissa and Company
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