This has been THE snowiest winter I've ever seen! Lately it's every few days. As soon as it melts (which isn't soon at all) it snows again. The kid is worried about her summer vacation being used up as they've already lost their spring break.
There is a comfort to this chilly blanket though.
I'm feeling better. Not 100%, but at least I feel like I can move. Have you ever felt like you just couldn't move? Like whatever energy you did have you had to spend on making sure you kept breathing?
I've spent the last two days cleaning....kinda early spring clean out. Organizing this cabinet and that one too. Making an attempt to get the house back into some kind of order after the Squirmy Wormy Hurricane.
That's about it.
I haven't made any art....just don't feel like it. The thing that is most annoying about this entire ordeal is that there isn't any 'real' reason for it - sure there are 'things' that I'd like to have in my life, but they aren't here (period)....so why not just enjoy what is here? I know all the counter arguments about choosing to be happy, arting anyway even if it's bad, counting blessings, just being with the feeling. They just don't work sometimes (and maybe they aren't meant to work every time????). I'd like to say "I know it all" and I think to a certain degree, I do. It's the putting it into practice I have problems with sometimes. It's the drive to get up. Ah, that bubble appears to have popped, so I won't focus any energy on trying to figure it out or conjuring it up again. I'm just glad to see it gone "And don't come back for 5 to 7 days!" (just a lil "My Girl" quote)..........actually lets make that 5 to 7 months!
Maybe my energy level was just really low and I needed to recharge. Maybe I read too much into it. That sounds like something I would do.
Thank you for your wonderful thoughts and words. I deeply appreciate YOU ALL!
~Magickal'ness~
Melissa
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I am so glad you are feeling better!
ReplyDeleteMaybe you aren't "arty" creative right now, but you are creating a wonderful and decluttered environment. That's clearing the way for who knows what exciting possibilities. :)
oooohhhh perhaps a pinch of the winter blues too??? mixed in with a bit of creative blahs... i'm in a bit of a rut as well... well with the little miss sick again, i kinda have no choice... but i find that this time of year so many creative souls battle it out with their insides, trying to dig themselves out of the blah hole they have fell in... but i see it as part of our creative (and life) cycles... no fun i hear ya, but i think part of growth... who knows really... but i am SO happy to hear you are feeling better!!! yay yay yay!!! and perhaps does early spring cleaning mean an early spring???? i hope SO!!! hee hee!!!
ReplyDeletethank you SO VERY much for you super beautiful words over at my blog... this winter has been a rough one as the little miss has been catching everything that's going around... on top of teething!!! YIPES!!! so your words are so comforting!!!
peace and love to you melissa!!!
Oh dear Melissa, you seem to have been in the same place I've been (and am still) in - BLAHandia, BLAHrida, BLAHrgentina... God, I've been having the hardest time trying to remember why I need to get out of bed in the morning. And I haven't done ANY "arting" AT ALL in weeks! It's got to be S.A.D. or somethin', huh? Well I'm so very glad to hear that you're starting to feel better! Sending you love and an infusion of sparkly energy to boost you up (hey, just 'cause I don't got none available in my body right now, don't mean I don't got none to share in spirit!) BTW, I have tagged you on my blog tonight.
ReplyDeleteOh, honey, take the time to rest and recover!! It's o.k. not to be outputting all the time. Sometimes we just need to be quiet and still and heal up. *lots of love* to you!
ReplyDeleteHey girlie!!! where are you? Is all well? I'd love to be able to talk to you on the phone... maybe after I get out of work. email me your # if that's ok...
ReplyDeleteHey Sweet Wonderfrul Girl !!!
ReplyDeleteI just got home after being away for a week back home with family and friends - I got myself a whole lot of LOVE THERAPY !!! You know, hugs, kisses, dancing, breathing in fresh air and better yet, baby neck smell, drinking wine, eating good food I didn't have to cook, laughing with good, good friends, crying many tears of loving understanding, walking, being rocked by my mom, sharing my rocks with some pals, etc... This week was the best cure for what ails ya that you could every find !
I am sending you some vibes off of what I got (can't send too many cause I was so empty myself, I need them to stay full through the rest of the winter !) and I am sending you wishes for finding your own brand of LOVE THERAPY around you big time to help you make it through more easily !
Let's do our best to make our lives the art, sweet thang ! That is what it is really all about. The other creating will be back when it is time. This I know for sure !
Viva La Love Therapy, Baby !
Hey There Beautiful Lady !!!
ReplyDeleteJust got back from a whole week of LOVE THerapy - you know, hugs, kisses, dancing, deep breaths of fresh air, or better yet, baby neck smell, eating food that I didn't have to cook, drinking wine, laughing with good, good, friends, crying tears of understanding and love, being rocked by my mom, giving out rocks to people who needed them, walks in nature,...basically creating the best kind of art there is without a paint brush in sight !
I am sending you some vibes I got from my week (not too many, cause I was soooo empty myself, I don't have too many to spare if I want to make the good feelings last through the next month or so) and also some wishes for you to find your own brand of LOVE THerapy over there in PA ! You so deserve it, beautiful and magickal Melis !
Make your life the art, Baby and the other creating will return in time! This I know for sure !
Viva la LOVE Therapy !!!!
~snuggly baby-fresh hugs~
Love Kim